dis entry is darn long.. like a novel! i dun practise short story. *LOL*
I've got da tendency to save entries as draft afterwhich i forgot to publish it. One gd example is the entry below..KHEkHkehKEhe!! Obviously i'm oblivious.. *LOL*
Anyway, suddenly i felt he has grown up over the years. told him that and he laughed. I mean da way he speak out his mind, his msgs and such, plays a very big part in having me concluded that he ain't a boy animore and those encouraging words,really boost me up. Thank you.. How i wish i cud turn back time.. *sigh* i shud have known how to control and tame my paranoia, my indignation, my sensitiveness, my annoyance, my obstinacy, my impatience and my irrational assumptions that would drive him to the wall and pressurized him to the max. But indeed, my negative traits got us closer, leading to a better understanding of each other. *LOL* He perceived the cynical attitude instilled in me had really got to do with his intolerable actions of which i eventually got carried away lah of course. If i didnt, we wouldnt haf be drifted apart for soooo long. Well, me being me.. back then.. That's a lesson to learn. People change over the years. Just like me. Not that vast changes but at least progressing. I believe both of us deserved to be blame and have to accept the aftermath consequences. But being egoistic Efni, he should bear more condemnation. *evil laughter* okay, okay, wats past is past. Dun wish to ponder. We left that behind and start anew as frens..distance frens.. quite depressing, but hey its better den nothing! I lost whatever we had back then and i wouldnt wanna lose whatever we haf right now. Once is enuff. If u get what i mean. Well, same goes for my current situation, i wouldnt want our relation to turn sour & to lose what we haf now. *sigh*
No grudges, no brooding over it and no repugnance against each other. The fact is we had never adopted those, especially hatred, yeah.. since da day da turmoil began. That's absurd isn't it? We are sorry for each other. Reminiscence of the past.. are still green in our mind. The dramas.. dramatic soap operas..hahaha..peepz surrounding often associated us with that..*LOL* Yeah, shit happens isn't it? Like he quoted, mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik semua yg berlaku. Yeah again, our fate was written. Thank God for making this happen. *show my sweet dimply smile* khekhekhekehkhe!
I'm feeling better now. Much much better. I knew da reason maself. Not gonna reveal it here. *bLueeKK* anyway, i mish u bebeh.. *pouts*
I think i'm getting way too sentimental in this entry. Lemme rejuvenate u peepz with sumtin else.. and so.. I received a msg frm Emily during meeting last nite. It reads:-
"If i have just 15 seconds to live, what would u say to me?"
i added in da msg itself,
"korang mesti kasi ans mepeknyer.. chube eh touching skit ekh.. hehehe"
and i sent it to my closest peepz..
ouh well, touchingggg nahhhh lah kengkawan ako ni hah... tknak ckp lah kan! *GRRRRR*
I had various answers frm da closest, be it corny, funny, alike or touches my heart. Well, pls expect the unexpected. By sequence of who replied me first. My comments in blue..
Nadya: Kasi passwd blog u, I nak continue jadi fighter mcm u!
==>part mane u tak paham lagik ni, i peh pwd bersepah kat korang! *LOL*
Ratna: Tolong mengucaplah..
==>i tink my hubby dun understand arh.. u dah kenaper? read the qns properly.. tu u nak tolong i mengucap.. but qns is what wud u say to me in my last 15 secs seh.. chuber ekh~! khekhekhe!!!
Nadz Sweetie: I nak ckp gd nite! I dah nak tdo ni..
==>yang nad ni konferm konferm tak bace btol btol. nampak sgt lah seh!!! KhaKhaKHaHA!!!
Sery: I love u kak ef.. Tapi sbelom u tglkan i, chuber eh wasiatkan dimple u pat i dulu k. Hehe
==>awww~~ touching nahhh lahh. dah tgl 15 sec, MANE SEMPAT NAK TGLKAN WASIAT EKH! ;p
Dida: Kak ef~! tkmu tglkan i.. sob sob (in da most dramatic way..)
==>ermmm.. can u do it to me live on tv.. hehehe..
Haizam: Y so fast?
==>da SHORTEST and da CORNIEST! hahahahhaha!!
Nani: I'd say "dok, dun wory. aku akan jaga azri dgn baik" hahahaha..
==>ni dah kenapeee~!!!hehe..ko nak amik dia ke jaga dia skg pon ako tak kisah!! hehehehe!!
Dee: Pls dun leave me.. I wun noe what to do without u. N den i will cry. Hehe
==>touching nahh lah c budak kecik ni satu.. hehehhe!!
Mima: Da merepek version-i will miss ur dodo face. The truth-i will pray for u for a smooth journey on da other end.
==>eh thanks eh dodo face! hahahaha!! siol betol! u can alwez browse thru my fotopages wen i'm gone so u wun mish me..anw,takpe kan ako ckp dodo tu unique. so ako unique lah kan! *LOL* for ur truth, make sense hor.. :)
Mas Scooter aka Beban: Jgn tglkan akooo bebannn..
==>gosh, we call each other beban. so i predicted this. hehehehe
Eila: Aku pun nak mati skali ngan ko!
==>uhhhh~ breathtaking.. touching mamposnyer ngko! :)
Nurul:
1st msg - Cup Size aku A
==>obviously didnt read properly~! but lepak sak ni! hahaha!
2nd msg - Siak ar, aku lum abis baca, aku ingat the msg read "wat wud u say to me in 15 sec" anyway, can i change my answer to "mengucap dua kalimah syahadah" HAHAHA
==>eh boleh mintak tukar answer ni plak! hahahaha! ngko dah 2 kali tak bace msg ako btol btol!
Jay Jay:
1st msg - I'll said thanx for being a very gd fren to me & i luv ur nadya so much.. Then i kiss u n go..
==>i got only 15 secs jer tu pon nak blg dia lup nadya? ish!! tak patot! *LOL*
2nd msg - Abeh i nak tell u more but u only haf 15 sec seh.. hehehe..I nak cita pasal hidup kita. hw lucky 4 me 2 get to noe u n etc, tapi konferm tak sempat. so i juz 1 u to know dat i luv ur nadya a lot. at least u know sum1 will always take care of ur fren more than he luv himself. u takyah worry animore.
==>lagik dia leh menjawab ni hahh!!! but well-reasoned and meaningful though.. nadya.. he luvs u, and i luv u too.. *winkZ*
Ayu: Mengucap efni mengucap!!!
==>ah yewwww~~~.. make sure u dun scream at me.. i haf only left wif 15 secs.. hehehehe!
Bebeh:
1st msg - I would say.. Agak agak u masok syurga ke neraka? haha
==>predicted sumting corny frm him.. ader ader ajerr.. so cruel~! to me summore! *terk terk terk*
2nd msg - Its not cruel bebeh.. Dats d reality of it all
==>Ryteeee.. dun u haf aniting better to say on my deathbed? i'm left wif only 15 secs u noe~!!! elehhh~~ ckp jer gitu.. nanti btol btol terjadik.. menggelacat lah dia.. *blueeekkkk*
Herna: "I'll say that even though we r not tat close, u r the 1 person can make anyone's day! u haf da power 2 make sum1 smile n wifout u, da aura wud be different. Ur da best ef~!" ok tak? Touching kan? Tapi ni frm the bottom of ma heart.
==>touching nak mampos to da max punyer lah dok~! i'm melting..
Yaya: I wud love to spend tat 15 sec by sayin.. tanx 4 being hirok pikok with me!
==>ni chuber eh.. suker hirok pikok? ok lah ako jwb welcome! hahahhaa!
Emily: I wud say u will still look sweet on da deathbed
==>alalalaaaa... sweet seh.. well, at least i noe 1 of my whole bunch of peepz complimenting me when i'm alive. i dun nid to wait till da last 15 secs of ma life isn't it?
Ida Nyp: I'd say i'm thankful that u r my fren even though there has been rough times. We may not b close but i treasure our frenship a lot..
==>tis is meaningful.. me too..
Lin IBM: i love u la bebeh. haha
==>bebeh kepper~! CHETZ! kHAkHAkAhkAH! lup u too larh!
Idah Jentz: Haiz.. terpaksa aku kena ganti pemain rebana jentz..
==>ni lepakkk...~~!!! ko baik train dari skg k? *LOL*
Emytonia Sa'adiahton: Buat mengucap kak~ ni bukan mepek seh.. ni mmg afdhal. nyehahahahaha
==>i dun understand y she laff like tat.. very typical answer.. hehehehe!!
Che'Mong: MENGUCAP DOK MENGUCAP!!!
==>dekni ni dah tgl 15 secs pon masih nak dok dok ngn ako..! *kharpuikkk* wahahhaha!!
A fren: I will say, efni.. mengucap dua kali masyahadat.. dgn nama Allah , insya allah roh mu akan dicucuri rahmat dan insya allah kita akan ditemukan lagi di syurga kelak.
==>gosh.. dis moved me too..
Of course there were a few who didnt reply lah kan. Above are da only ones who kuasa to layan my antics. *LOL* anyway dats just for fun coz i was damn bored in da meeting. hehehee!! but to those who replied with much sincerity, thank u coz it moved me, those corny replies, i forgive u, those funny replies, i appreciate it coz dat made me smiled alone in da miting room. :)
but seriously, haf u ever came across thinking abt death? hmmm.. belum cukop bekal utk di akhirat. dosa kat dunia ni bertimbun timbun.. ape nak jadi eh.. haizz.. kritik yg kritis.. what wud really happen to us after death. insya allah we'll be place in heaven.. *amin*
ok now quick updates.
Friday 26/05
Party @ MOS. Pending pics frm Eila..
Saturday 27/05
Party @ Momo. No Amp. Pending pics frm Em...
Sunday 28/05
Kenduri arwah atok @ Admiralty.. chuber eh ni no pics..*LOL*
Details will update when i've received the pics...
*shouting out damn loud*
EILAAA!!! EMMM!!!! CHuber expedite eh PICS~!!!!!
p/s:- who wud actually read my long long entry eh?? hahaha.. anyway, dat doesnt matter at all. da most important thing is, my blog serves as a diary for me to read back to recollect da past in da future. so whoeva reads it, den be it.. got nothing to hide.. *chuckles*
Anyway, suddenly i felt he has grown up over the years. told him that and he laughed. I mean da way he speak out his mind, his msgs and such, plays a very big part in having me concluded that he ain't a boy animore and those encouraging words,really boost me up. Thank you.. How i wish i cud turn back time.. *sigh* i shud have known how to control and tame my paranoia, my indignation, my sensitiveness, my annoyance, my obstinacy, my impatience and my irrational assumptions that would drive him to the wall and pressurized him to the max. But indeed, my negative traits got us closer, leading to a better understanding of each other. *LOL* He perceived the cynical attitude instilled in me had really got to do with his intolerable actions of which i eventually got carried away lah of course. If i didnt, we wouldnt haf be drifted apart for soooo long. Well, me being me.. back then.. That's a lesson to learn. People change over the years. Just like me. Not that vast changes but at least progressing. I believe both of us deserved to be blame and have to accept the aftermath consequences. But being egoistic Efni, he should bear more condemnation. *evil laughter* okay, okay, wats past is past. Dun wish to ponder. We left that behind and start anew as frens..distance frens.. quite depressing, but hey its better den nothing! I lost whatever we had back then and i wouldnt wanna lose whatever we haf right now. Once is enuff. If u get what i mean. Well, same goes for my current situation, i wouldnt want our relation to turn sour & to lose what we haf now. *sigh*
No grudges, no brooding over it and no repugnance against each other. The fact is we had never adopted those, especially hatred, yeah.. since da day da turmoil began. That's absurd isn't it? We are sorry for each other. Reminiscence of the past.. are still green in our mind. The dramas.. dramatic soap operas..hahaha..peepz surrounding often associated us with that..*LOL* Yeah, shit happens isn't it? Like he quoted, mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik semua yg berlaku. Yeah again, our fate was written. Thank God for making this happen. *show my sweet dimply smile* khekhekhekehkhe!
I'm feeling better now. Much much better. I knew da reason maself. Not gonna reveal it here. *bLueeKK* anyway, i mish u bebeh.. *pouts*
I think i'm getting way too sentimental in this entry. Lemme rejuvenate u peepz with sumtin else.. and so.. I received a msg frm Emily during meeting last nite. It reads:-
"If i have just 15 seconds to live, what would u say to me?"
i added in da msg itself,
"korang mesti kasi ans mepeknyer.. chube eh touching skit ekh.. hehehe"
and i sent it to my closest peepz..
ouh well, touchingggg nahhhh lah kengkawan ako ni hah... tknak ckp lah kan! *GRRRRR*
I had various answers frm da closest, be it corny, funny, alike or touches my heart. Well, pls expect the unexpected. By sequence of who replied me first. My comments in blue..
Nadya: Kasi passwd blog u, I nak continue jadi fighter mcm u!
==>part mane u tak paham lagik ni, i peh pwd bersepah kat korang! *LOL*
Ratna: Tolong mengucaplah..
==>i tink my hubby dun understand arh.. u dah kenaper? read the qns properly.. tu u nak tolong i mengucap.. but qns is what wud u say to me in my last 15 secs seh.. chuber ekh~! khekhekhe!!!
Nadz Sweetie: I nak ckp gd nite! I dah nak tdo ni..
==>yang nad ni konferm konferm tak bace btol btol. nampak sgt lah seh!!! KhaKhaKHaHA!!!
Sery: I love u kak ef.. Tapi sbelom u tglkan i, chuber eh wasiatkan dimple u pat i dulu k. Hehe
==>awww~~ touching nahhh lahh. dah tgl 15 sec, MANE SEMPAT NAK TGLKAN WASIAT EKH! ;p
Dida: Kak ef~! tkmu tglkan i.. sob sob (in da most dramatic way..)
==>ermmm.. can u do it to me live on tv.. hehehe..
Haizam: Y so fast?
==>da SHORTEST and da CORNIEST! hahahahhaha!!
Nani: I'd say "dok, dun wory. aku akan jaga azri dgn baik" hahahaha..
==>ni dah kenapeee~!!!hehe..ko nak amik dia ke jaga dia skg pon ako tak kisah!! hehehehe!!
Dee: Pls dun leave me.. I wun noe what to do without u. N den i will cry. Hehe
==>touching nahh lah c budak kecik ni satu.. hehehhe!!
Mima: Da merepek version-i will miss ur dodo face. The truth-i will pray for u for a smooth journey on da other end.
==>eh thanks eh dodo face! hahahaha!! siol betol! u can alwez browse thru my fotopages wen i'm gone so u wun mish me..anw,takpe kan ako ckp dodo tu unique. so ako unique lah kan! *LOL* for ur truth, make sense hor.. :)
Mas Scooter aka Beban: Jgn tglkan akooo bebannn..
==>gosh, we call each other beban. so i predicted this. hehehehe
Eila: Aku pun nak mati skali ngan ko!
==>uhhhh~ breathtaking.. touching mamposnyer ngko! :)
Nurul:
1st msg - Cup Size aku A
==>obviously didnt read properly~! but lepak sak ni! hahaha!
2nd msg - Siak ar, aku lum abis baca, aku ingat the msg read "wat wud u say to me in 15 sec" anyway, can i change my answer to "mengucap dua kalimah syahadah" HAHAHA
==>eh boleh mintak tukar answer ni plak! hahahaha! ngko dah 2 kali tak bace msg ako btol btol!
Jay Jay:
1st msg - I'll said thanx for being a very gd fren to me & i luv ur nadya so much.. Then i kiss u n go..
==>i got only 15 secs jer tu pon nak blg dia lup nadya? ish!! tak patot! *LOL*
2nd msg - Abeh i nak tell u more but u only haf 15 sec seh.. hehehe..I nak cita pasal hidup kita. hw lucky 4 me 2 get to noe u n etc, tapi konferm tak sempat. so i juz 1 u to know dat i luv ur nadya a lot. at least u know sum1 will always take care of ur fren more than he luv himself. u takyah worry animore.
==>lagik dia leh menjawab ni hahh!!! but well-reasoned and meaningful though.. nadya.. he luvs u, and i luv u too.. *winkZ*
Ayu: Mengucap efni mengucap!!!
==>ah yewwww~~~.. make sure u dun scream at me.. i haf only left wif 15 secs.. hehehehe!
Bebeh:
1st msg - I would say.. Agak agak u masok syurga ke neraka? haha
==>predicted sumting corny frm him.. ader ader ajerr.. so cruel~! to me summore! *terk terk terk*
2nd msg - Its not cruel bebeh.. Dats d reality of it all
==>Ryteeee.. dun u haf aniting better to say on my deathbed? i'm left wif only 15 secs u noe~!!! elehhh~~ ckp jer gitu.. nanti btol btol terjadik.. menggelacat lah dia.. *blueeekkkk*
Herna: "I'll say that even though we r not tat close, u r the 1 person can make anyone's day! u haf da power 2 make sum1 smile n wifout u, da aura wud be different. Ur da best ef~!" ok tak? Touching kan? Tapi ni frm the bottom of ma heart.
==>touching nak mampos to da max punyer lah dok~! i'm melting..
Yaya: I wud love to spend tat 15 sec by sayin.. tanx 4 being hirok pikok with me!
==>ni chuber eh.. suker hirok pikok? ok lah ako jwb welcome! hahahhaa!
Emily: I wud say u will still look sweet on da deathbed
==>alalalaaaa... sweet seh.. well, at least i noe 1 of my whole bunch of peepz complimenting me when i'm alive. i dun nid to wait till da last 15 secs of ma life isn't it?
Ida Nyp: I'd say i'm thankful that u r my fren even though there has been rough times. We may not b close but i treasure our frenship a lot..
==>tis is meaningful.. me too..
Lin IBM: i love u la bebeh. haha
==>bebeh kepper~! CHETZ! kHAkHAkAhkAH! lup u too larh!
Idah Jentz: Haiz.. terpaksa aku kena ganti pemain rebana jentz..
==>ni lepakkk...~~!!! ko baik train dari skg k? *LOL*
Emytonia Sa'adiahton: Buat mengucap kak~ ni bukan mepek seh.. ni mmg afdhal. nyehahahahaha
==>i dun understand y she laff like tat.. very typical answer.. hehehehe!!
Che'Mong: MENGUCAP DOK MENGUCAP!!!
==>dekni ni dah tgl 15 secs pon masih nak dok dok ngn ako..! *kharpuikkk* wahahhaha!!
A fren: I will say, efni.. mengucap dua kali masyahadat.. dgn nama Allah , insya allah roh mu akan dicucuri rahmat dan insya allah kita akan ditemukan lagi di syurga kelak.
==>gosh.. dis moved me too..
Of course there were a few who didnt reply lah kan. Above are da only ones who kuasa to layan my antics. *LOL* anyway dats just for fun coz i was damn bored in da meeting. hehehee!! but to those who replied with much sincerity, thank u coz it moved me, those corny replies, i forgive u, those funny replies, i appreciate it coz dat made me smiled alone in da miting room. :)
but seriously, haf u ever came across thinking abt death? hmmm.. belum cukop bekal utk di akhirat. dosa kat dunia ni bertimbun timbun.. ape nak jadi eh.. haizz.. kritik yg kritis.. what wud really happen to us after death. insya allah we'll be place in heaven.. *amin*
ok now quick updates.
Friday 26/05
Party @ MOS. Pending pics frm Eila..
Saturday 27/05
Party @ Momo. No Amp. Pending pics frm Em...
Sunday 28/05
Kenduri arwah atok @ Admiralty.. chuber eh ni no pics..*LOL*
Details will update when i've received the pics...
*shouting out damn loud*
EILAAA!!! EMMM!!!! CHuber expedite eh PICS~!!!!!
p/s:- who wud actually read my long long entry eh?? hahaha.. anyway, dat doesnt matter at all. da most important thing is, my blog serves as a diary for me to read back to recollect da past in da future. so whoeva reads it, den be it.. got nothing to hide.. *chuckles*
Comments
hahahhahahaaha...
trust me babe, no matter how long yr entry will be, pple do still read. ade yg sanggup cut & paste lagi! *bluek*
btul tu nadya..
hehe.tapi best ar entry u nie.
kekek tau i baca!~
wooohooo...
chuber eh u peh slow smlm..
*giggles*
*sniggers*
tapi kan yg baca pon ader yg tk faham sey..kan nadya kan????
bukan kawan i camelia jer yg chantik.. sumer kengkawan i very da damn chantik n gorgeous.. tak bitches mcm yg bitches bitches lah kan.. eeeeeewwwww~!!!
*winkz to camelia*
khakhakhakhakahkahkahaka!!!!
Pls dun say tat ....
nanti jadi issue seh !!
Thanks anyway for the compliment.
Like wat eyume said,
all my frens are pure beauty!
dun believe, c it urself!
= )
no matter what... you masih my No 1 choice.
paling jambu.