sleepyhead..

its almost 6am now. i just changed my layout again. n again i missed out some parts.. the tributes part. aint haf the time n idea to insert any stuffs. dat shall b redundant fer now. almost done.. my new layout.. *pheww*

i'm getting sleepier. cant wait to get home to get a few hrs of sleep b4 i proceed to TKSS for anotha 3 n a half hrs of teaching. darn.. i'm shacked..

well, i dunno y i've been a bit emotional dis days. am i being paranoid? its a hell yes! haha.. i dunno wats happening to me? my life? my future? i've got absolutely no planning. efni, u'r turning 23 dis yr dammit. wer's ur goal? wat do u wanna achieve in life? sumtimes i juz feel like a damn sore loser. n i dunno wat am i losing in? am i worrying fer nothing? well, i'm juz being me. n its hard being efni.. try dat.

i just realised sumting. i practically do not haf any time to enjoy like last tyme. i tink i've wasted so much time back den. n now i'm occupied with work, work n work.. but i do haf tyme fer clubs. but i'm sick of it. darn. wats up wif me sia?

i've been listening to a few sentimental songs since i started werk just now. it certainly bring back the reminscent of the mirthful n happier moments back then. different songs reminds me of different person. a person or shud i say a guy hu i actually shared my ups n downs, sum1 hu i looked fwd to c wen i wake up n the last voice i wud wanna hear b4 i sleep. oh well, everiting's history. i'm not just bothered by 1 person. its more than 1 person.. i juz feel dat the almost perfect men like em has vanished... all i'm left wif r jerks. i'm tired of meeting egoistic jerks.. full wif empty promises..whispers sweet nothings n nothing comes out of it n da best thing is.. i dun even noe whether i'm attached now.. gerek eh gerek eh? well, dats life all abt.. well.. i'm thankful to GOD on wateva he had granted me all this while. i believe i'll get wat i want in the near future.. patience is virtue.

i've learnt all my past lessons. i just feel that it made me a better person. i wud like to thank dos guys hu once stepped into my life, be it fer a short or a longer time coz u noe y? u've all made me stand upright on my feet. i believe i can move on. i've got dis strong mindset whereby my ego stood high too..i've got an attitude. n it sux big time too.. *sheeshhh*

to the men i met in da past..
although i know it wasnt a deliberate actions afterall of us hurting each otha n stuffs n yet we njoyed each otha's companion, i'm still thankful to God dat He decided to put u all along in my journey of life. thank u fer adding sparkles n torches my life during the gloomy time.

i dun no wats up wif me? but peepz, just bear wif it. i'll come back to my senses in a while.. gimme time.. eh ape ckp ni efni.. giler ek>?! darnnNn!!!

*stress*

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